>>20702843As a middle aged sedentary and poor person, I see this and see as repulsive as myself, there's something about this gut feeling that is stronger than species preservation, as if it knows it is barren and I should run away.
I guess is the same shit as I look at a young girl, now I have this: she is hot but (insert all the things that comes with young dumb sluts and all the struggles of being a rightless purposeless slave).
It started at mid thirteens... I guess by middle forties I will have absolute rationalized my sex drive.
If my body and mind tells me, my kid would probably look defective from old man sperm or some shit like that.
When I reached 30s I thought that if I had resources I could pull off the whole family gig but I look at myself, look at woman and the world, for me, it will be nightmarish...
I don't even have this option since I'm poor, sick and old and can't even land a job in anything in my field or any office job because of my skin color...
