A few years back (before covid) I was at the hospital because reasons. I was sitting on this bench near the entrance with this one girl about the same age as me. You could say we were "friends". I haven't seen her or talked with her in a few years now. We were talking about something, whatever it was I don't remember, just small talk. In comes an old man. Or at least tries to. He was struggling with the door. I made eye contact with him and at that point, I knew what was going to happen. He started, ever so slowly, to fall down, while trying to hold onto the door, until he was flat on the ground. All I did was make a bitter smile and say something stupid under my breath, something like "That's how things are, old man" or whatever. Then the girl I was with noticed him. And went to him and started screaming for help. Eventually help came and took him to the emergency room. After that she was angry at how long it took help to arrive. I haven't moved a muscle in that time. I haven't even pretended to get up from the bench. If she noticed that, she never said anything to me.
Loldova has no idea what an acomplishment it was to make me give even a single fuck. Sure, I also made it easier back then. In 2022 I came to this board looking for something to give a fuck about. That was my purpose in coming here. How fucking stupid is that? How fucking stupid am I? Regardless, it was quite the acomplishment. One that, in a beautiful twyst of irony, ended up meaning nothing to Loldova.
