>>20823497>fell into victimhood after being abused by my parents and several relatives >started with booze, went to weed and a bad girlfriend, the bad girlfriend destroyed every friend group I had and the worse it got the more I drank and the more fucked up I got until the point where I would have blackouts when I wasn't fucked up>complete fugue states>woke up one day having clearly been buttgaped and people asking where I drove off to in the middle of the nightzero recollection, nobody ever followed it up, only evidence is my literal ass
>decide to go straight>quit booze, quit weed, find psych help >psychiatrists decide I should be on meds to be happy instead of making psychological progress back into the living world >aripiprozole gives me tardive dyskenesia and brain damage>also now have bizarre uncontrollable urges to do things that may or may not relate to the brain damage >manage to find friends again>get drunk on a once off to fit in because the other friends are doing it and I don't want to act like I had a problem once or anything >fully sperg out and tell them everything >lose everyone again because toodeepproblemsmyguyyikesumwow.png>get a dog and work out instead >talk to nobody but misanthropes on the internet not sure which part I regret more kek
I think life meant for me to anhero but I just didn't catch it in time and lived this hellish existence out for the sake of god's entertainment
