I've gooned so much that I reached the realization that sex isn't all that. It's fun and feels good but ultimately it's just you stimulating your senses for a thrill. I get why women can do it with men and genuinely think what matters is that she wants to do it with you. The emotional connection is what matters. Not the pleasure. I don't hate women anymore. I don't think sex is the end all be all anymore. I can finally be happy and move along with my life.