i am in love with asuka langley soryu. I have felt this way from the first time i ever saw evangelion as an itty bitty pweteen all the way up to now. its never going to change, its the only constant in my life - my love for asuka. i am convinced it is beyond purely physical; the connection i share with her transverses into the spiritual realm. we are spiritually bound, and, synchronized, somehow. at first i appreciated how "compatible" she was with me, how we fulfiled and completed each other and how perfectly cute and funny i found her while knowing she would feel the exact same way for me, as attraction has to be shared by the recipient for me to actually feel "love". i of course could never be with her though, since she's just an anime character, so i pursued women in real life, absolutely scraping the barrel trying to find anything that even came close to the true love i felt for asuka, but, needless to say, nothing did. the physical attraction was there, but the real women could never make me feel the same way i felt for Her, there was no connection, no divine appreciation for the very core of each others person. like with asuka. i wish i never watched that anime.
