I can't. I simply can't.
My girlfriend left for a chronic alcoholic, open narco, and promusciuos man that lives in a provincial Russia. She said that she has a 'spark' that she didn't feel for a long time.

I lived with her for two years happily. And I am a man with a high-earning career in Moscow and a comfy life, and I was providing her with all the necessities.

I am on the verge of taking my own life. I don't even know how to cope with it; I just betabuxxxed in the end, with, as it turns out, no real affection.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q8wutByWktk