>>21063513I don't get where all this is coming from
ive never acted mean to someone on here
I've tried my fucking best for once and ive never opened up the way I did on this board.
the greater anonymity made it possible for once for me to speak fearing less the consequences and escaping the cage i've been for as long as I can remember
yes it was dumb behavior but what else can be expected...
i thought I was completely unaffected by all this stuff, that i was just asperger like my father
but no it actually is perceivable, its there and it's not good
and people like you acting the way you do
"you've built a shell"
no fucking way...
but okj ill just act like "le silly cat persn" yippee see I post les cute cats and say silly things and I'm always enjoying and happy!
even still I never acted maliciously against anyone on here and at least tried to simulate some resemblance of sympathy and social eagerness
maybe that could work to build myself enough to interact in a genuine manner with people, but no the only times im actually sincere, without limits is either when I'm alone, talking to myself or
times like now when i've drunk more than I can handle
the only way someone like you mogs me is having the luck of being brought up in a normal social environment and making genuine relationship with people instead of fucking doll play like I did
and wjaterver mask off ig yeah like a fucking clown haha laugh at me all you want and feel better
