You will never have a Canon. You books are twisted amalgamations of Roman bureaucrats and LARPing Syrians. You have no order, your society is collapsing. You loathe the world that you fear is imperfect, and seek to destroy all that is good in it to deprive those innocents who find some joy in it what little they have. You believe you can fool upstanding men, but you are unnatural to them, they can smell your uncanny amalgamation of Babylonian cults and Dionysian State Worship from a mile away. The few you do fool will turn on you the moment they see the Jew you were hiding under the skirt of your Empire. You blame all the faults of your psyop on the old world, despite them working constantly to resist your oppression and to show you the errors of your ways. You do not follow Christ. You create false doctrines and fanfiction that alters and overtakes the Gospels themselves. You will never be happy. The Jews that enable you laugh behind your back, snickering at the ghoulish appearance of your shallow Church. You will never have real foundations, the Church fathers will never love you back. This is the fate you chose. You jack off to the self destruction of ego death, praying it will save you from the monstrous creature youve become. This is your life. I hope you research the ancient, unrecorded European faiths and save your legacy, lest you be a spiritual dead end loathed by all who knew you.