>>21100811I live a joyless life filled with existential horror faced with the knowledge that many of the things that give me pain were in fact out of my control. Through sheer determination as well as the fear of death I have preservered in a situation that has driven others to suicide.
But I'm still thankful for the ever few and fleeting moments of satisfaction (I won't call it happiness) I've experienced and if that's God's doing, than I'm thankful to it. It really hurts though to know that so many others got dealt a better hand though.
