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>born in a poor family in a middle of nowhere in a town with population of 8K
>had an alcoholic father who got kicked out of the house but still caused us troubles (like breaking our windows) and eventually went to prison for murder (twice), where he died
>not ugly, but had protruding ears and croocked teeth
>wore hand me downs
>bullied in school, had to endure 10 years with literal degenerates in the same class, was under a constant stress
>didn't gave up
>promised myself I will be a good husband and a father, not like my father was
>studied and was a diligent brother and son
>spent my 20s earning money despite huge complexes and sociophobia and no help in draling with them
>moved my family to Moscow and was forced to live with them due to obligations and sense of duty
>obviously couldn't start searching for gf
>now
>32
>have two degrees
>know english, chinese and japanese
>rich and have good career, only 0.4℅ of working Russians earn the same or more than I do
>bought a flat in Moscow for myself and for each of my family members
>money allowed me to fix my looks and start visiting gym and now I look attractive (girls rate me 7 or 8 online)
>beat sociophobia and became relatively charismatic
>smart and well-read, have a lot of hobbies and can have a conversation about almost everything
>still no gf, girls don't seem to be attracted to me and a girl I invited for a date refused
Am I giving the wrong vibes?Sometimes I feel like Elliot Rodger, except deserved. Should I keep going? Granted, I function in a normy mode for like half a year only, but it is hard to keep going. I feel like I will never have happines and Karma doesn't exist. Or simply not enough time have passed? I constantly see girls in their early twenties being interested in wealthy 30 year old men, but they seem to ignore me. Or at least I feel like this. Please, /bant/, help me not to give up. I feel so missed out on everything in my life.
>had an alcoholic father who got kicked out of the house but still caused us troubles (like breaking our windows) and eventually went to prison for murder (twice), where he died
>not ugly, but had protruding ears and croocked teeth
>wore hand me downs
>bullied in school, had to endure 10 years with literal degenerates in the same class, was under a constant stress
>didn't gave up
>promised myself I will be a good husband and a father, not like my father was
>studied and was a diligent brother and son
>spent my 20s earning money despite huge complexes and sociophobia and no help in draling with them
>moved my family to Moscow and was forced to live with them due to obligations and sense of duty
>obviously couldn't start searching for gf
>now
>32
>have two degrees
>know english, chinese and japanese
>rich and have good career, only 0.4℅ of working Russians earn the same or more than I do
>bought a flat in Moscow for myself and for each of my family members
>money allowed me to fix my looks and start visiting gym and now I look attractive (girls rate me 7 or 8 online)
>beat sociophobia and became relatively charismatic
>smart and well-read, have a lot of hobbies and can have a conversation about almost everything
>still no gf, girls don't seem to be attracted to me and a girl I invited for a date refused
Am I giving the wrong vibes?Sometimes I feel like Elliot Rodger, except deserved. Should I keep going? Granted, I function in a normy mode for like half a year only, but it is hard to keep going. I feel like I will never have happines and Karma doesn't exist. Or simply not enough time have passed? I constantly see girls in their early twenties being interested in wealthy 30 year old men, but they seem to ignore me. Or at least I feel like this. Please, /bant/, help me not to give up. I feel so missed out on everything in my life.
