>>21151888you have become your own god, thinking that only you are capable of judging yourself
you claim that you have studied many religions, yet the original actual scriptures of christianity specifically tell you that you don't need to study the word of God, dont need to read the bible, dont need to know any special prayers, all you need to please the creator is to have a mind and look around and appreciate the creation you are in
the idea that you are some sort of wizard with magical powers beyond a normal man is, well, a consequence of you not having a personal connection with the Creator.
why would God write an amazon bestseller? why do you think he cares if you believe in him or not? he could force you to not do any evil, not believe in any other gods, etc but then it would not really be free will inside his Creation. instead, we are able to do evil, able to be wrong, etc because part of that is what it means to be human.
an angel would look down at us and think "wow, God, it is so complicated for them. some of them don't believe in you but us angels know you're right here, it must be so confusing for them to be deceived by so many sources." and us down here at earth would say "it's not fair that we get to suffer down here on earth instead of live in bliss", but ultimately once we are eternal beings in the kingdom of heaven we will be grateful we were able to experience this life full of joy and sorrow, pain and comfort, etc.
you dont need to worship or follow the doctrines of other men. the catholic church has inverted the original scriptures and have people convinced to go to another MAN and call him "father" and confess their sins to him, as though another man could ever judge you. the relationship with the Creator is in your head, in your heart, and all you have to do is speak humbly and freely as though it was a friendly conversation. just a "thank you for creating my eyes that can paint better than anything my feeble human hands can ever draw"
