>>21166681I met mine. The thing is that it's never what you expect. She didn't even really fit my 'type.' But you know when everything clicks. A feeling like no other. Pure absolute bliss; time felt like smooth butter. Of course there were a few downs, but it was mostly ups. I could tell them stuff I couldn't even admit to myself. The security that comes with having someone you can rely on and never feel betrayal. I and them against the world. Knowing I'd be the only one to ever truly know her intentions was something else.
Then she passed.
Now I count the hours. It's been long time, so it doesn't bother as much. New gf. But once you know what true bliss feels like, it's never the same. I'm not saying I compare the two, because honestly you shouldn't. I'm just saying sometimes I kinda wish I didn't meet her; just to have it ripped away.
It's like when you're a kid and want all the cool stuff adults do. Until you're an adult.
