Be me.
Recovering coomer, it is what I am most ashamed of.
Been a problem since I was 9.
Notice as a teenager that when I give in to the urge, life gets harder.
You know Demon's Souls has world tendency? It felt like shifting black.
Litteraly every problem in my life would be amplified on those days. Weird things too.
I could coom the night before I work and then the entire next day would be miserable.
Next week, no coom, work has no snags. stuff like that.
It seems like the world tendency reset to neutral after being clean for 24 hours and that every additional day shifted it more white, better things would happen.
Be 2020, I voted for Trump and do not like Biden.
I remember Trump challenged results in courts and the actual undisputed results were delayed.
Feels like weeks.
I relapse.
Get a text after relapsing that Trump's cases fail, Biden is now officially "legitimately" the winner.

Ffw to first Trump assassination attempt. I had been clean for about 2 weeks, have a relapse. I finish, check my phone, Trump had been shot.

Ffw today. relapse, Trump gets shot at again.

I really gotta stop, I don't want him to get hurt. Am I crazy and do you notice things get worse when you relapse for a repeated sin?

Also what does it mean when people say "uoh" or some variaton of it? Someone said it on my last thread and I don't understand.