>>21314106did you ever have to teach yourself how to participate in society, the importance of grooming, social etiquette, how to get a partner? i did, and i wonder how normal that is. i had reddit serve as my sociopathic step dad i never had, and teach me how to navigate a world i'd never truly interfaced with before. i keep wondering when i face deficiencies, whether this is a symptom of autism, or if it is a symptom of underdevelopment, and how difficult it is to explain this to other people that you're not exactly normal, and that it's not always your fault for why things are the way they are with you. it would be nice to have someone who does understand guide me through the world with compassion and show me that it isn't so scary, that i can do this. i know i am flawed and immature, so i know i have room for growth, but it is impossible here in the circumstances i'm in because i'm forced this way and that without a chance to really develop a healthy relationship with whatever i am interacting with. i hate surviving, i'm going to go die.
