>>21424151my story is very similar
my father hit me and my mother for no reason at all since i began to walk, some of my earliest memories were watching my mother get whipped because she tried to shield me, later i had to run away from home all the time
in school i wasn't just ostracized, but hated by everyone, i even got beaten by multiple people
then i dropped out and did all kinds of horrible shit
since then i've been working the same job with the same position for nearly a decade
despite this i made a goal and worked really hard to make everything go according to my plan, i almost made it but something out of my control fucked things up so bad and now i'm just a failure with nothing else to live for
but i never considered suicide, not even close, idk how it feels
