I have an anxiety disorder or something like that. I am taking C20H21FN2O and am functioning on autopilot. On the plus side, my eyes no longer water when I cut onions and my mood is stable. On the minus side, I can't bring myself to go to university, amusement park or computer game (this one I definitely didn't expect). I usually say something like “if I don't go, then...”. But whatever alternative I can think of, from physical harm to reward, my muscles just relax and stop responding. (I fall asleep insanely fast now, though.) I've tried to find people who can get me to do something, but apparently they either try to use or don't get involved. What else can I think of (besides the army, jail, starvation, suicide, and pill replacement) to get myself to do something?