>>21499442>life after 30 is slow motion suicide without family.>proceeds to explain how life is only slavery, misery and decline.I think I have the same disparagement as you, there is a "connotation" or more things "predicated" to this idea of family.
even though you know the misery of your own existence, you have this hope that is strongly tied to species preservation, as if your kid would not be constantly raped by masons or don't find a job because of his white skin color.
are we truly suffering only for the reproductive task or we also suffers in conjunction of the non-slave life? If our lives were slavery, wouldn't we also forwarding slavery? How good the masters treated you that you'd think that your loved one would bring sense to your suffering?
Anyways, as my sex drive declines due to age and poor health condition due to poverty, I come to conclusion that most of it is sex drive with species preservation but a huge amount of it is delusional hope in humanity due to a few good years back when I was a kid, naive and had much more resources than today.
I guess the realization that the suffering is about the state of the world as it is brings comfort after a while. If I properly rationalize it, I see why I had no children, it wasn't a choice rather the lack of it. This insistence would show only stupidity of my part, if my life was most of it a series of bad experiences with just a brief moments of good times and a lot of delusions, feel like raising a kid with less resources than I had gambling with luck.
