I tried going into aldi with my mom but it was crowded and full of disgusting amerifat slobs and the noise and crowd I turned stiff and retarded looking and holding my arms in and holding my pretend keys in both hands and looked mentally disabled stuck out like an infected thumb I wore normal guy clothes and tried to have good posture but i looked grotesque and obscene not knowing how to stand or what to do with my arms I should have worn a loose hoodie with the hood up and one lady avoided eye contact with me and another gave me that fake pulling your cheeks in smile you make when you're uncomfortable just like 2 people at the neurology office and I wanted to throw up and when I saw myself in the checkout camera I wanted to kill myself because of my ugly autistic dumb brain damage shit mud color eyes that are so unintelligent and hideous and my shitty ugly hideous disgusting worthless face that I delude myself any woman will ever love me for NWWELMAISKMI (no woman will ever love me and I should kill myself immediately)