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Just took 140mg of Ritalin and 40mg of Ambien. That would me worth 2 days + 20mg of Ritalin and 4 days of Ambien. I'm used to be living at the rock bottom, for the last 2 years I've been feeling happy, going out, frequenting Rock Clubs, picking up girls, losing my virginity and all that normie shit. But it's been a month since I can't get excited over anything, I dropped studying for college, I rarely frequent parties and i drink casually. I keep the "happy mood" only for my mom, I've caused so much pain and she still loves me anyway. The thing that kills me is that I know that I was a dick and only thought about myself, i know that was wrong. But I don't feel as much guilt as I had to, it feels just like I took 20 bucks from her purse to buy new games. I'm not trying to provoke suicide, I'm just trying to keep it exciting, and at te same time I don't care about the outcomes. I hate myself for it, but I can't control my feelings... I just thought about sharing this since we all love to witness stragerss misery, so why not telling you about how guilty I feel for not feeling guilty for fucking everyone that cares about me's lives. Also do whatever you want im this thread, just enjoy this fucked up awesome hostile friendly place.
Anonymous
Also, I'm from Rio and my mom's first name is Claudia in case I die or some shit. So everyone can find the news report and tell everyoune how I decided to talk to you guys before I an hero. If I fucking live and wake up in 19h with a huge headech and a bad case od pussy, you can all forget about me until I call you a nigger in some thread about racist latinos. Also, Fuck moot for leaving us like my girlfriend on mu. I hope you get pregnant and have little vegetables, and your husband makes you keep those pieces of wasted meat, pussyfucker420
Anonymous
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>>2165506 I think is worse being that ignored than that fucking uncertainty of what might happen.
Oh, forgot to mention, I already did 300mg of ritalin today total, that might fuck my lver, but now it's too late to worry
Anonymous
I don't think that's gonna kill you anon. Also most of the people here could insert their name in that and over half of it would still be true
Anonymous
hello go to hospital haha
Anonymous
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>>2165512 no fucking shit, look at my fucking face and keep deducing things, like the percentage of fucks given about my niggerness, jewerness or whit... nevermind.
Anonymous
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>>2165527 Yeah, I know the chance of joining the pussy squad is low. But there's still the chance I loae my mind and start walkijg around my hood
Anonymous
>>2165529 And make my mom go al trough that again? Nigga, I risk my mind, health, reputation, but not my family's.
I'm starting to feel bad, my father's sleeping on his room thinking I'm probably dizzy drinking my last bear.
Mom's at her house sleeping and sure I'm either sleeping or watching netflix.
Anonymous
>>2165465 you're just an asshole.
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>>2165556 I feel like such a jerk for pittying their naivness and thrust(something I fought for yeara making me the victim umtil they nbeliwe ans trust me. First day of freedom, I do the only thing that started the whole breakdown. And i'm also not guilty. Not enough...
Anonymous
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>>2165560 Right? And that makes me disappoinyed, I want to feel regret, guilty,, wven depression wouls work' Anything to grab me by my "soul" amd s
Show me from her Ide
Anonymous
It's almost impossible to write here, my brain is top much confused fpr a comversation includong the cast pf houSe md. Ok. I'll leave doxtor house explain to everyone whatafuck is happenimg to bant Hi, Im House. This retarded selfish crazy nigger is getting high Theres no much for it. The stpry is there, but im not jumping the builsimg, just keep reactionleaa until wvweybosy fprgetaa what has hapenws. If you couldnt read shit, i feel you i cant see
Anonymous
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>>2165736 Even tbe drugged me is ashamed about a this.
Well... welcome to 4chan
Anonymous
I just turned into my worst fears I'm that bfag who's always talking About guns, mass murder , blood and his collection of illegal furriez with the head detachable ao hes able to do his secret stuff. I domt want that furry gay shit, i want to star my amy whynehouze corpse furry. Id spend my whole left hour to teach her how to not fuck up as I did
Anonymous
>this guy is literally killing himself and the thread is being ignored Welcome to /bant/
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>>2165786 I domt remember takimg this pic, amy lost medfaga or drugguies know if it is possible to have multipersonities as a result pf my overdose? i accidentaly found out that low cellphone brightness make me feel interested to the actual symptoms.
We were looking umtil threw Nother queatupn.
So. THE REAL HOUSE hA Ny idea that wpuld help me umderstanding the anatomy and chemistry here?
anonymous
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>>2165801 didn't read :DDDDD
Anonymous
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>>2165801 I alteady foind out that it just makes me hallucinate and have multiple personalities.
I gave up making a thread, this is my journal
Anonymous
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The hole point of the thread wa to people watch me as I describe everything weird. Im just curiouS
Sven the cuck
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>>2165465 >140 mg of ritalin Take more you queer
Anonymous
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this ks the kimd pf atrempt thag requires someone aober
Anonymous
The thread was supposed to be one guy about to try dangerous non lethal dosages of Ritalin and Zolpidem. I would take those and wait until my first symptom show up. But when it did, was exactly the only thing important for this thread. The symptom of the brain that makes me kmow how to use the eyes But he's alone and os blind. So evwry atempt to start logging, i couldn t kmow what to ay, qhich letter is. -New personality detected He is calm, first of all that stopped to think. Guys; I think im back and comfused
Anonymous
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>>2165465 I'm ready to confirm the next symptons
Dizziness
Paranoia
Multiple- personalities
Hallucinations
Also I felt so cold while I was fucked up, i felt no emotions at all
That was a bust, maybe next week i get somwone to write for me.
Anonymous
Im just abandonmimg this thread qhile i atill cnt tlk I think I just used bant to think, otherwise the other thresad would be my furry asshole
Anonymous
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>>2165942 You guys were like the place you keep drumk people so they dont ruin the party
That shitshiw saved me from being bored and fuck everything up
Anonymous
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>>2165942 nigga make sense
Anonymous
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I wonder about people when they take the amount of drugs OP said and then make posts like this..
>>2165906 When back when I did drugs I would be up for almost a week straight on acid and meth and would be just as sane. Do acid op. You want to trip, don't ya?
Just make sure you have a close friend to baby sit you. You will literally turn into a baby. It's just what the drug does and it would be very dangerous to do it first time without someone watching you.
Have fun, my fellow psychonaut.