>>21808880Our relationship started as just a friendship. We'd talk a lot, had common interests, mutual friends ect. She'd eventually become like my best friend, and she felt the same about me. I was with my oneitis at the time and that relationship was beginning to end. So I turned to my best friend. She comforted me, and in return I did the same for her whenever she would vent about her life. Instead of keeping it as just friends, I started falling for her because I didn't want to be alone after my breakup.
I didn't realize at the time how jarring this was for her because she didn't feel that way about me initially. She saw me as safe presence, someone she could trust with anything. The night I told her I wanted to be with her, I also admitted I wanted to fuck her. She didn't know what to think, her view of me had just completely shifted. I basically forced her into it via emotional manipulation. The relationship that is, not sex. I was so numb at that point from my breakup. I started to care about her feelings less and less. I stopped giving a fuck about her problems in life. I just ended up using her for sex.
I made her relapse into self harm. It was an abusive relationship. It was never physical abuse, only mentally and emotionally. I never hit her, I never forced myself onto her. I saw my fair share of that as a kid and never wanted to do that to someone else. Anytime we had sex, I made sure she actually wanted it. She stuck with me because she grew a dependence on me. She didn't want to lose me even if it meant she had to suffer. I did things I'm not proud of to get what I wanted from her. Any time she tried to walk out I'd pull her right back in. It got to the point where I stopped caring altogether about if she stayed or went and she would still come back to me without me lifting a finger. We would spend months apart, and I'd get a message from her out of the blue and just like that we were back. Through all of that, I still couldn't get over my oneitis
