>>21893492Thanks. I had my life fucked up by Revelation specifically, I know how you feel, to a degree. It was the first book I read because I thought that the ending would resolve everything, lol. You know how that book is. I'd like to say that I just spent, past-tense, years of my life terrified, but if anything, I've grown more abnormal over time.
If I were normal, I'd just leave it at "demons don't exist", which is true enough, but I've spent my time developing my theory of cognition which integrates them as natural phenomena. I also have multiple voices in my head, but nothing say that you can't have voices in your head; that's just an assumption (historically grounded, since people hearing voices tended to ruin the world). In my theory, internal voices are simply vocalizations of the contents of the mind, a bit like auditory dreams - which also explains why the tone of the voices is culturally specific, e.g. Westerns tend to hear judgmental and accusatory voices, whereas in other cultures, the voices can be encouraging too. My voices are true neutral, like "the voice of science" (who follow the scientific method), the voice of truth (who does say true things, because she represents my concept of what is true, she just doesn't like providing proof), plus a few others.
I am reasonable, but I'm... structurally reasonable. In a sense, my mind is made out of reason; I run logic and analysis all the time, and execute this or that algorithm. In the past, people often confused me for ChatGPT because of this, but that was only because I couldn't match their state of mind, which is how we judge the reality and relatability of others. Nowadays, my words appear almost magical, even to me, which is why I always confirm completely opposing viewpoints (each viewpoint in the terms of the opposing one).
So what I'm saying is: man, I sympathize with you when it comes to religious trauma, I really do. I read Revelation at 13, and it's all been downhill for me since then.
