i am a creep. im a weirdo.
i obsess over people I don't know
i hate my body so much, damn near everything about me. i want to be someone else.
i see attractive people, mostly women, and I am painfully enveloped in envy, infatuation, increasing self-hatred. I want to be them, I want to be them, their attractiveness, their looks, their skin makes me cry. i want a perfect body, i want a perfect soul. I absolutely hate how ugly i am, i fucking hate it. it pains me when i see hot cute attractive girls, online and in real life, i see them existing and it makes me so fucking jealous, envious, anguished. i see girls irl one time and i'll be thinking about them for weeks and months, its even worse online, so many thousands of attractive beautiful people, women and men, and im not a single one, no, i had to be born a disgusting ugly piece of shit creep loser. im a fucking loser.
their angelically beautiful, and im ugly scum.
i am going to kill myself, and this is a big reason why. i dont belong here.
facial hair, body hair, thick eyebrows, acne, masculine body, normal weight, masculine fat distribution, lack of any facial attractiveness, my crooked awful teeth, my eyes, my retarded brain, i fucking hate it, i fucking hate it all.
i dont want this. i dont want this worthless body, i want to be the perfect beautiful attractive people I see. but I'll never be any of them. so much of them, and im not them, i want to be them.
im gonna fucking kill myself.