>>2190928I really see zero future for myself. I feel like I don't belong in this world. People who I view as unique have taken their own lives before I was able to save them, and now I feel alone, like I'll never find people like them again.
I'm still pretty young but I don't think I want to see what it's like to be old. Every day is just monotony, boredom, sadness. I was actually recovering before I came to /pol/.
I walked to a church last night around 3am and prayed. Not for myself, but for others who I couldn't have saved. I don't think of myself as religious, but after praying I always feel a sense of, ever so temporary, calmness.
That Lara girl who took her life over the degeneracy in Argentina still lingers with me. Feelsbadman.
