I am almost 30 and I never understood that I have bouts of depression because I think most people don't understand what depression actually is. It has nothing to do with feeling "sad" most of the time, I just go through periods where I feel deeply unmotivated to do anything and talk to anyone and nothing I do gives me any real enjoyment, just absolute blankness. It's difficult because life makes me so tired and caring about shit is so taxing that sometimes I want that feeling, like I will take a week off of work and buy some food for a few days and just make plans to be depressed and not do anything. I can understand why this is so dangerous for people.

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