Im not short i have a pretty decent physique from 3 years of gym im smart enough for a 3.9 gpa i so sports as a hobby why do they always leave me the first told me i was everything she had ever wished for and more and we were inseparable she left me for her bestfriend who i trusted she would no cheat with, the second one wanted me first she would hear everything i said and seemed to actually care about me she was so nurturing and pushed me to be better when i got told she cheated i didnt want to believe it i told her to swear and she swore and i believed her until i saw the pics, the last one, the most beautiful, delicate, smart, funny, cute, precious, amazing, glowing, thoughtful, lovely girl ever appeared, she was my type, not just my type but MY type, in body and in soul she was so perfect for me it was as if God had made his magnum opus for me, she was everything i dreamt of, i almost didnt believe it how could something so perfect exist in a realm other than heaven? she told me she was infatuated with me, head over heels for me, that it seemed as if i had her under a spell, she told me she wanted to have a life with me, we both wanted kids a girl and a boy it was literally perfect she was my match my perfect match my missing rib my missing pair of legs and arms, and she left me with the dumbest excuse ever, "im insecure youll think im ugly and leave me"?? how, how could i ever leave my lifelong dream, in what world could i find a reason to leave my reason to live, why would i leave the only being that made me happy, all 3 of them said and still say im a catch, the second one still tries to talk to me, i know i am an amazing boyfriend and ive been told so too so what is it wrong with me? I pray that im just not hot enough, im saving for a trip to turkey to get my face fixed, i hope with every ounce of my soul that that is the issue, because if not then something is inherently wrong with me, not superficially but internally, as if i was made wrong by God