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Anonymous ID:Ng/h43hH Tue 28 Jan 2025 10:23:25 No.21997941 View View Reply Original Report

Quoted By: >>21997982 >>21998054

When i relfect about my life i want to bash my fucking head in

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Anonymous ID:iOi+hOiY Tue 28 Jan 2025 10:25:59 No.21997944 Report

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those tits

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Anonymous ID:23sJNKpt Tue 28 Jan 2025 11:00:46 No.21997982 Report

Quoted By: >>21998068

>>21997941
why anon-chan

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Anonymous ID:oihVDRP3 Tue 28 Jan 2025 11:47:20 No.21998054 Report

Quoted By: >>21998068

>>21997941
Yeah same. My whole life has been a pathetic humiliation ritual.
So now I just focus on escapism. I'm really stoked about the future of AI and how it might lead to even better escapism.

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Anonymous ID:Ng/h43hH Tue 28 Jan 2025 11:56:28 No.21998068 Report

Quoted By: >>21998084

>>21997982
because im a fuck up and the people around me resent me for it, sometimes i think hey they are not in the wrong to feel this way but at the same time it makes me upset
>>21998054
escapism is not the way to go trust me
no amount of drugs, porn or other distractions can undo the past

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Anonymous ID:dDAGTBEM Tue 28 Jan 2025 11:58:34 No.21998074 Report

Quoted By: >>21998083

Weren't you doing meth/heroin or something?

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Anonymous ID:Ng/h43hH Tue 28 Jan 2025 12:03:59 No.21998083 Report

Quoted By: >>21998100

>>21998074
yea, i tried almost every drug in the book, i did it all
it brought me nowhere and got me into legal troubles so i stopped
the legal consequences still follow me around, always lurk behind me like a damn shadow that i cant get rid off

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Anonymous ID:oihVDRP3 Tue 28 Jan 2025 12:04:18 No.21998084 Report

Quoted By: >>21998118

>>21998068
Yeah i know, which is why i always try my hardest to just not think about the past at all. I try not to think about who i am at all.
I care about the next delusion. That's all.

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Anonymous ID:dDAGTBEM Tue 28 Jan 2025 12:08:51 No.21998100 Report

Quoted By: >>21998118

>>21998083
Maybe you should have thought about that before doing every drug imaginable. You can still improve your life though if you stop acting like a retard.

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Anonymous ID:Ng/h43hH Tue 28 Jan 2025 12:17:10 No.21998118 Report

Quoted By: >>21998121

>>21998084
heh reletable
when you set yourself silly goals to distract yourself in the hope it would change something.. at least its not that bad if its something productive
try out gym or running it always helped me to take my mind off for a while
>>21998100
i was short sighted retard back then
i dont really know what i improvement in my case would even mean
i got a new job lined up though... perhaps this time it wont be a oneway street

trial and error

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Anonymous ID:dDAGTBEM Tue 28 Jan 2025 12:21:59 No.21998121 Report

Quoted By: >>21998155

>>21998118
I have a job where I semi-regularly have to "deal" with people who are so far gone from years of drug abuse that their view of reality is warped into a perverse nightmare world. Try staying sober and holding a job so you can keep what remains of your sanity.

Anonymous

Anonymous ID:Ng/h43hH Tue 28 Jan 2025 12:34:02 No.21998155 Report

Quoted By: >>21998164 >>21998167

>>21998121
i suppose you are a social worker then
i still have my sanity but i think i suffered cognitive decline (bad long term memory, bad short term memory)..
i used to see demons, i often wonder how i ended up more or less okay after years of drug abuse
i suppose i got lucky but i shouldnt test my luck more, because who knows whhen the mind will have enough

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Anonymous ID:HbDN+bsP Tue 28 Jan 2025 12:40:12 No.21998164 Report

Quoted By: >>21998167

>>21998155
He's an EMT.

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Anonymous ID:dDAGTBEM Tue 28 Jan 2025 12:41:43 No.21998167 Report

Quoted By: >>21998183 >>21998197

>>21998155
EMS Professional
I've seen where that road goes firsthand and the best thing you can do now is quit drugs all together. You can't fix what already happened but you can prevent it from getting worse. Sober + job and then figure out the rest.
>bad long term memory, bad short term memory
I've heard that before but mostly from people who smoked a ton of weed.

>>21998164
How would you know?

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Anonymous ID:FVa89dNL Tue 28 Jan 2025 12:41:50 No.21998168 Report

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Well I'm in the same boat pretty much. Ex alcoholic I drank for 15 years until my liver failed back in April 2024. Lots of bad memories, mistakes, etc. Divorce, hurt people (emotionally) etc. Something you're not ready for is how disappointed and angry everyone looks when you're in the hospital waiting to hear if you get to go home or not.

Anyway, yes the past hurts but you have the whole future to prove that's not you anymore, so prove it. I'm certainly trying and I think it's worth it to try.

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Anonymous ID:HbDN+bsP Tue 28 Jan 2025 12:49:05 No.21998183 Report

Quoted By: >>21998216

>>21998167
You told me.

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Anonymous ID:FVa89dNL Tue 28 Jan 2025 12:54:30 No.21998197 Report

Quoted By: >>21998216

>>21998167
I had a really friendly EMT on my ambulance ride and he really seemed to care about me. Even came in later to get the diagnosis since at that point i had severe jaundice from the liver failure. Whole night was a coin toss on if I'd ever get to go home or not.

I think he'd be happy with where I am. Said some impactful things to me that night. I personally look at how proud of me everyone is instead of how disappointed everyone was of me in the past. It took hard work to earn that.

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Anonymous ID:dDAGTBEM Tue 28 Jan 2025 12:59:58 No.21998216 Report

Quoted By: >>21998226

>>21998183
Think I remember telling one person months ago. Didn't think you'd remember or recognize me.

>>21998197
Did he come back to your room after returning from another call or wait out in the hallway? Must have been pretty worried about you if he stayed instead of going back to bed.
>I personally look at how proud of me everyone is instead of how disappointed everyone was of me in the past. It took hard work to earn that.
Proud of you

Anonymous

Anonymous ID:FVa89dNL Tue 28 Jan 2025 13:04:34 No.21998226 Report

Quoted By: >>21998240

>>21998216
He waited in the hallway. That was super nice of him to do in what felt like a world of disappointed and apathetic people. Another one is a nurse at my Dr's office just turned around one day and said "you know what, I'm really damn proud of you."

Earn these things OP they are worth the effort you bitch!! (Sorry for cussing)

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Anonymous ID:dDAGTBEM Tue 28 Jan 2025 13:14:44 No.21998240 Report

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>>21998226
Yeah normally we leave after getting a nurse/doctor to sign some paperwork saying we transferred care to them. Only reason he stayed was because he wanted to see how it played out.

Its my bed time. Keep your liver safe.

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