>>2200387nah it was fun but honestly
i think i have some kind of legit brain problem/emotional disorder
about every other season (in terms of fall/winter/spring/summer) i get super depressed for no reason and have random bouts of what seems like legit agoraphobia for about a week at a time, i get super anxious just trying to leave my house. but then because i have a job and other shit to do, once that agoraphobic feeling passes, i am too stressed out by the potential repercussions to go back for another week
i know its not seasonal-affective because it goes out of phase with the weather a lot, and its not a really permanent ongoing thing since sometimes i feel real good and actually start undertaking projects and shit
but then again, i usually abandon said projects at the slightest hint of trouble, and sometimes just get too depressed to continue with otherwise not-that-bad projects
idk
maybe it is just time 2 die
