>>2211138Don't worry, after dealing with it so long, I've been trying as hard as I can and I think I am making good progress. I am starting to take control and make things better for myself. I suppose, the #1 issue would still be social, it always is for autists. I don't want to try to make myself seem less impressive but in middle school I would run down the halls and flap my arms like a bird and make bird noises and people bullied me in hard ways, and I wanted to kill myself but I've got over it. You see, I've grown so much that it's unbelievable, I went from barely functioning to how I am today, which is not nearly what a normal person should be, but I've worked my way all the time until I got here.
The most annoying thing of all that I face is trying to convince people that I'm intelligent, some of my teachers used to be bias against me because I never look like I'm taking things seriously, and I simply act autistic which really takes away one's credibility immediately, it's very easy to instantly dismiss someone when they act like me. The issue for me is not coming up with the answer or ideas, but presenting them, and receiving them.
My thinking has always been ahead, but I lack a social understanding, I often say things that are not socially acceptable, or seem rude or arrogant, but to me they are simply conversation, I honestly cannot see any undertones in my words, unless I put it in purposefully, just words is what I see.
The greatest compliment I've ever received is when my high school English teacher accused me of plagiarism on something I didn't plagiarize at all "You are a highschool freshman, and this looks good enough to be published" he said and it made me so happy.
Sometimes I can't eat unless I am walking, or I can't listen to music unless I am pacing etc. Music is one of the best things for me, but I have to listen to it with the lights off otherwise it is too much stimulus and it completely distracts me and ruins the song, I cannot focus.
