>>22394631this, though
you should take a break from the personal shit once in a while
you should have something else to focus on
is there anything you wanted to do when you were a kid?
maybe you could join a fencing class or do urban exploration or study engineering, i dunno
there's plenty of things to get immersed in which will be fulfilling enough to make life worth living, even without any personal success
for some it's harder to find than others, but just stay in the present moment and keep trying instead of ruminating about shit you don't know how to solve