>>22475459>doing something insane like trying to meet her at twitchcon.That's really not insane at all, unless you were going to be weird. Fans meet streamers all the time at twitchcon. Just be normal, if that's possible. I'm not sure if I'd even want to meet her. It would be just for a moment and uneventful. It would probably be nice, she's a lovely person after all, but it would be fleeting, and painful after the interaction. If I were to meet here I'd want it to happen naturally and off camera, where i could actually talk to her for a bit, even just 5 minutes. Now that's insane, thinking that could happen. I don't, but if I did, it would be insane. Although, if that were to happen, I'm almost certain we wouldn't get along, not that I'm an awkward or nasty person or anything. I just don't think we share many interests and I'm a pretty boring guy. Also, it would still be just one conversation, still fleeting.
I've been thinking about her more than usual lately, not sure why. I imagine scenarios where I meet her and we get along and have a good time, laughing and shit. I do it pretty much every time I go to bed. This is in contradiction to what I think would happen, which is why they call it a fantasy of course. Is it strange to do that? Probably, it's certainly a bit sad, but I'm not a weird or bad guy. I'm not sorry for it. I'm having a moment of honesty and I don't care what others think of it. I'm just typing.
I'm trying to think of something smart to say about this whole thing but I think that everything has been said at this point, to the point of exhaustion. It just goes on and on and on. It's endless. I hope you guys have a good day, and a good life. I didn't intend for this reply to turn into a journal entry, but it just got me thinking, that's all.
