saw a teeny couple kissing and touching each other inappropriately in my platonic incel-friendly local park my heart sunk so badly so I went to the public toilet took a piece of toilet paper scrubbed my crotch intensively and all other smelly area of my body like armpits asscrack etc I then came back to the park and find empty benches I took that toilet paper out and scrubbed it all over the place even spitted on that thing like HAWK TUAH.

felt like I just reached a new low but somehow I don't feel so bad about it. this world is really causing me pain and im just another helpless victim