I’m throwing up on the sidewalk
It's 2am, everybody left
I just embarrassed myself for an hour now I'm sitting in a neighbourhood I don't even recognise
I didn't even want to go out
I kind of thought that it would help just a little
But I know that I'm lying to myself 'cause I know in a weeks time I won't try to realise

This ain’t a way to live
So why does everybody brag about it?
I guess it’s easier to fill yourself with poison while you're holding onto moments you can glorify


And I've been stuck for a while now
'Cause I've been saying this for three damn years
Am I ever gonna change?
Will I make it out alive?


Or will I crumble, will I fall?
Will anybody even care at all?
Am I destined to be damaged?
Am I too far gone?
Believe me when I say it ain't fair to feel this way
But I'll poison myself ‘til I'm too far gone