>>22832143I know it's just an estimate and I don't take it as absolute, but this backhanded "optimism" of yours won't habilitate me either. People like you aren't even giving advice to make me better, you just get satisfaction from talking down to people with different problems than you
Regardless of what mindset I tell myself, I can't control if other people like me
>just X,Y,Z maxx broI could forge a fake impression for a few minutes at best, fake expressions fake speech pattern, fake posture, but that's why the number is so low because I told it how I only want someone as defective and subhuman as I am, and not care about my flaws and poverty and nothing to offer but my heart, and and love me for who I am, and on a strictly platonic level..i'm sure there's one person in the world like that but not on kike tinder or nightwalks, which is all I can tolerate anymore
I've been thinking about that bible verse "do not cast pearls before swine" and that's exactly what I'm always doing, people who don't know me or my life shit on me online because I'm not what they consider perfect, and then I try so hard to defend my honor and heart and everything that's happened to me, and try so hard to gain their approval when they're not deserving of it
