>>22926902thats a really good question.
When we were locked up in the MH together and like the only two halfway sane and attractive people there, it was really easy to feel like i was falling for her.
but on the outside in the real world... she is a very small town girl. very young and very naive.
stuck in the middle of nowhere with no job and no car living with elderly grandparents. an awful situation for her. She is obviously madly in love with some highschool sweetheart shes known for years all over her social medias. She is all about that $$ when she talks to me. She's willing to give me anything I ask for but there is zero interest in me at all as a person. I even tried to show her glass stuff I had made and she was just like "ye". She self references to being a "trap queen" on social media.
She's not even old enough to buy cigarettes yet. Everything about it feels off. At the time though in the MH I felt like i could fall in love, but it was also the timing. I needed someone to help me feel better about what just happened between me and Betty. How she flipped on me, how I reacted and the things I said, and how I wanted and tried to kill myself for failing to de-escalate the situation, falling back to my old self, loss of all progress I thought I had made as a person. Sitting in that place stuck with no way out and only that to think about. She helped me get through that somehow. Im glad she was there.
but on the outside, its just not a fit for so many reasons.
>>22926849>an elaborate parasocial relationship in your headthe jealousy is seeping from this post
