This is a warning, lots of rambling ahead.
>>23141768>Especially dealing with dead parents and it's even worse when you never got along or hated them.It's a real shame. I attempted to speak to her about this privately months ago. Even warning her about potentially burning out if she continued at the rate she was going. At the time I was a nobody in her eyes (and still am) so she understandably dismissed everything I had said to her. Hell she even deflected some of it back onto me, whilst never addressing any of what I said. It was a very quick and cold response. I can't help but feel slighted by that exchange, even all these months later. What particularly left me upset was the fact that I not so subtly alluded to going through a similar situation at the time.
I get that I'm just some guy who watches her, she's not my friend and never will be. I knew that then and I still know that now. I shouldn't care about her at all, yet I do. I'm, supposed to view her as just an entertainer and nothing beyond that, yet I don't. I'm finding it difficult to sit here and listen to her tell stories about how grim her life has become. As she continues to do nothing to improve herself, instead opting to take the first chance she can get to run away again.
Allow me to go on a tangent for a moment. I think this is a real issue some others have in this community. They truly believe in their heart of hearts that they are her friend. This has been repeated ad nauseam and it'll continue being said. No genuine friendship is predicated on monthly monetary donations just to be able to even speak to that person privately. Stop handing her money and watch how little she interacts with you outside of her streams. Despite referring to you as a friend prior to cutting off your donations. I would LOVE to be proven wrong about this by the way.
Should be glaringly obvious who I am by now for anyone that is somehow still unsure. If anyone has a problem with anything I've said so far, DM me.
