>>23299757>>23299779Ah, how noble. To deny your father's molestation of you by killing yourself. You are aware just because you are dead, he isn't going to stop yes? He will simply move onto the next victim. That is how these things go, as a victim, you should honestly run away from the situation rather than letting someone else be the totem of his sin.
Again, I cannot stop, nor do I particularly want you; I am merely giving you guidance in this that there are plenty of options on the table that aren't suicide in general.
You are frightened that if you report your father to the police, it will destroy your family; of which, yes. It will. But that isn't your fault, it is the blame of your father, not you. You see it as a means of "I'm the bad guy, so I must die" which is simply your father winning at the end of the day.
If you want to stop the abuse, and save your family, you must live, and assign the blame unto him, not yourself. To do any less is to continue to be a victim, even after death, and worse, allowing him to victimize someone else.
In that, you will be held accountable for, because I am here, giving you knowledge and opportunity that you failed to register in lieu of continuing to be a victim.
This repeats the earlier statement "Death is not an escape" you will not stop being a victim in your death, in fact, you will simply be a crowning jewel, a shining example of your fathers victory and dominance over you. You will forever be marked as "Chose to be victimized" rather than choosing to not to be a victim.
What a perverse love you have for abuser, but that makes sense; because in your logic, "I wish to protect my family, even if I must escape the abuse"
Have you considered talking to a friend, or another family member of the abuse, perhaps a priest? I find that it would quite helpful, much more than someone who is simply an internet psychopomp who has come to greet you at the liminal doors of life and death.
