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> be me
> brown family kid
> 16-18 years old
> fuck everything up
> anime > studies starting from lockdown
> parents disappointed, always comparing me to some “perfect kid”
> wanted Science stream, denied because of some stupid 65 in Math in grade 10
> switch to lower school, thinking I’ll fix it
> start online coaching
> backlogs pile up like I’m collecting regrets
> avoid Chemistry like it’s a death sentence
> fail every exam imaginable
> cry alone on train to village for some meaningless ritual
> feel like I’ll never be good enough
> repeat Class 11
> confess mental health is in ruins
> parents ignore it, pretend it doesn’t exist
> oldest kid in a sea of younger faces, constant reminder of failure
> lie about DOB because shame is suffocating
> tuitions feel like slow torture
> suicidal thoughts become background noise
> pass Class 11 barely, lowest grades possible
> shame sticks to me like a second skin
> Class 12 same cycle, slightly less pathetic but still falling apart
> random tuition picnic feels like the last spark of joy before everything goes dark
> develop meaningless crush on library girl
> ignore it, because nothing good ever happens
> pass Class 12
> marks are trash
> anger swells, envy eats me alive
> watch idiots barely trying get further in life
> everything is unfair
> existence feels pointless
> confess everything to chatbot because who else would care
> no one listens
> still here
> just waiting to fade away
> brown family kid
> 16-18 years old
> fuck everything up
> anime > studies starting from lockdown
> parents disappointed, always comparing me to some “perfect kid”
> wanted Science stream, denied because of some stupid 65 in Math in grade 10
> switch to lower school, thinking I’ll fix it
> start online coaching
> backlogs pile up like I’m collecting regrets
> avoid Chemistry like it’s a death sentence
> fail every exam imaginable
> cry alone on train to village for some meaningless ritual
> feel like I’ll never be good enough
> repeat Class 11
> confess mental health is in ruins
> parents ignore it, pretend it doesn’t exist
> oldest kid in a sea of younger faces, constant reminder of failure
> lie about DOB because shame is suffocating
> tuitions feel like slow torture
> suicidal thoughts become background noise
> pass Class 11 barely, lowest grades possible
> shame sticks to me like a second skin
> Class 12 same cycle, slightly less pathetic but still falling apart
> random tuition picnic feels like the last spark of joy before everything goes dark
> develop meaningless crush on library girl
> ignore it, because nothing good ever happens
> pass Class 12
> marks are trash
> anger swells, envy eats me alive
> watch idiots barely trying get further in life
> everything is unfair
> existence feels pointless
> confess everything to chatbot because who else would care
> no one listens
> still here
> just waiting to fade away
