you don't have to call out me like that. that's too brutal, man. you don't have to remind me that i lost my youth to my indecisiveness. you don't have to remind me that i lost my youth and never even kissed anyone, yet alone had sex or even loved by anyone. you don't have to remind me that i only cope with my pitiful existence just to think that i still am that younger person. that i am still a child that have future and not an old loser that has only empty past that cannot be fixed.
fuck you. i guess it's time to rope myself. i just... can't anymore
