>>23383399You're still a teenager, I promise you'll change, and things will get better, you just have to try. My best advice is to get a hobby and slowly try to forget about this, if it's making you want to kill yourself. Think about it logically for once. Use your ego. You must have atleast a shred of ego if you want to kill yourself for not being what you consider to be ideal, so why not use the same ego to shut these thoughts down? How are these thoughts going to make your life better in any way if they will just lead you to suicide?
Maybe you won't believe me, but I also had a weird phase when I was a teen and it also caused me to just kinda suck and fail at life and school. It's cause your brain is very maleable and you are spending a lot of time on your computer, on social media websites where tons of dick measuring contests constantly happen that can make you as a teenager feel inadequate, consuming many things that slowly but surely have made a devastating impact on your brain. and you can't really weigh how much any of this rhetoric genuinely matters to you since you as a person aren't 100% fully formed yet so you have no actual defense mechanism against it. I actually feel bad about you cause you don't deserve this. The only way to reverse the damage is to only indulge in other (brain)things. Maybe get fully immersed in a hobby. I don't want this info about me up but I'll say it just cause I do see myself in you. I was like 15, my life sucked, I was racist and weird, super unlikeable. I got into basketball, stopped caring about what 4chan or whatever other incel website had to say, stopped looking at what other people do and put all of my effort into becoming a better player. All of a sudden, I was likeable, people wanted to be friends with me again, and I was "cool". It can take years to reverse. But I'm sure your true personality, that hasn't been corrupted by internet ideas spread by losers, is something other people will cherish and love you for.
