>>23478220you can find some other life if you keep trying
all that shit that happened will feel like a distant bad dream, once you find some other life
people have told me repeatedly "i didn't think i would make it to age 25, but now my life is amazing"
the only way you seal your fate completely is by deciding it's not worth it and killing some people, it's a self-fulfilling prophecy
it's stupid
i am sorry that shit happened though, and yeah it can be incredibly gaslight-y & desolate when everyone you're supposed to trust/respect treats you that way