If real life was a video game, I would have reset my character and tried again, but this doesn't work, you just ends there.

But I feel like there's nothing much left for me to do in this world. I didn't make it at anything I've tried. I still live with my parents at nearly 40 years old.

At my age it all feels over. Ive already done all of the foundational self improvement stuff like looksmaxxing, 10-20 years ago and none of it ever made a difference. I still have my peak natural gains from the gym and I still perform well in the gym, so it's not like I even have the typical path of starting lifting which most failures my age do, because I already have been doing that for 20 years plus now.

Every financial decision Ive made even if it worked out initially ended up failing and put me in an even worse financial situation.

I still dont have a gf/wife or kids at this age, and I have already had pets, so getting a pet is not something I want, ive been there done that 20 years ago. At this stage I cannot imagine even having kids either, all of my nephews and neices are riddled with autism and adhd, so id probably have annoying as fucking autist kids too if I ever had them, but at my age now I dont think id have the patience for kids at all