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I've got a trip to Japan for my 35th birthday in March, flying business class.
Don't have any particular reason to keep going after that though. I'd actually planned to kill myself in Japan back when I was working my old job (retail), but now I'm in something better I don't know what to do, to be quite honest.
Worst part is that with the new job where I get decent to reasonably good pay (depending on overtime), I've come to realise what a bitch I am.
>6'3"
>THICC cock
>Handsome enough to get attention
>Retarded enough to fuck it up over and over to the point where I don't have the social confidence to try any more, despite being confident otherwise
>Even when a cute girl smiles at me, openly flirts with me, or tries to sleep with me, I still back away because I just can't bring myself to risk my heart
>Lonely as fuck for it
It's a tough situation because I know the thing holding me back is me. I know I'm being a bitch, and that only makes it hurt more.
