>>23636468ask your doc about adhd as constantly thinking about shit/having thoughts race all the time can be a symptom combine that with depression and you have us.
idk if im right but it feels like you are a bit younger so my suggestion would be ride it out for a while and try others things rather than jumping straight into killing yourself but at least you have an option to do it without pain now.
happiness unfortunately is subjective and as soon as you start having pressure to be a certain way or start to compare yourself with others that can break what we perceive as happiness.
id suggest to try and ground yourself and take it day by day. who cares if you something you do takes effort when it doesnt for others, take pride in you being able to complete it etc.
yeah thinking of the future sucks, from small things like imagining where you will be to larger things like the state of your country etc. its maddening thinking about existential shit.
I think the trick is not caring if it is going to get better or worse, finding pride and a drive to just keep going is what you should be focusing on if you want things to get better.
Nothing is constant, everything changes, if you think you have it bad now things can always get worse the question is are you going to try and make it better or let it get worse.
im letting shit get worse, iv stopped my SSRI so i can 'safely' robo and benadryl trip since i cant drink any more. cant wait to get fucked up again
if you dont care any more id suggest you get on some kind of drugs even if it is just alcohol, being off your face is 100x better than raw dogging life when you feel the way we do but it will make your life worse in the long run lol
