>>23722360You're right about being in nature, I was thinking about going to sit in the woods for a bit and just do nothing. I walk my dog every evening so I might just go sit with him for awhile in silence.
I understand not fitting in as well, my IQ is in the lonely zone, average people bore me but I'm also not smart enough to connect with the intellects.
I relate to that type of frustration. It feels like people are too lazy or something to even try and understand things you want to discuss. The only thing people want to indulge in is consumption of technology or media. I get angry a lot too but afterwards I feel ashamed for getting angry.
All these things are something I still struggle with, it's hard finding ways to cope. I've been exploring new hobbies to keep myself occupied. Woodworking is one. I try and find joy in creating art and making something beautiful people can admire. I fucking suck but it's a work in progress.
I understand what you're going through, anon. I'm not sure what the answer is. I plan on keeping these music threads up and going, there are some others here who make them too. If I find an answer I will share it with you. You'll be able to find me here. If you find a solution, let me know. In the meantime we can struggle together. For now I need to stop taking these pills and stop prolonging my emotional pain.
