>>23710934RIGHT RIGHT. Let's say I fix my life up. Then my worthless bitch ass parents get away with being lousy pieces of shits. I should kill myself so I can shame them in my death. It would be great if my suicide would make my mom stop acting like a teenager maybe she would get her grip on reality for once and realise.
"wow while I have been avoiding responsibility while I have been stupid while I have had kids knowing I was in dire circumstances and inflicitng unfair conditions on people who didn't ask to get born I should have thought about my actions for a bit". And instead of watching tiktok every hour, going to parties, dating rich men, going on vacations with friends, getting her payments payed by her neet loser son so she doesnt get kicked out of the apartment so she doesnt get in debt. She can live everyday in guilt that her first son killed himself. Because I just wake up everyday and watch everything crumble, my mind, my social network, my body and everything that matters to me. and I sit for months stuck in this room and sometimes I have horrible days where I cant hold myself back from punching holes in the wall. and she acts like it means nothing and nothing gets better for me. even if i do what im told even if i do finish school it does nothing. in fact its BEST if i do neet because i cant guarentee myself getting a good job and even if i did get one i cant guarentee i would be social or good enough to hold it. im forced into this whether i want to be a neet or not. im disgraced either way no matter what i do.
