>>23805732I see what you are getting at. That you are afraid I am becoming too attached and trying too hard. That I am only going to hurt myself with my own ego if I fail or even if I succeed. And yes, while a point of this post was to ego affirm myself this isn't all about me, this is about bringing life back inside of myself and to spread that life to other people so they could hopefully ease their own pain. I'm doing this to fight entropy. Life is the answer, not the question. I already learned to let go of everything by delving deep into my shadows and pain. And just like with your horse video, it is a good thing that I made this post so we could talk to each other and learn from one another.
And yes, if you try too hard you are going to ruin things. Having a schedule to train and strengthen yourself is nice, but if you try you are doing it wrong. Trying brings fog and doubt into your mind, words and just words if not followed through. Flowing water slowly etches it's way to create a path.
