>>23845349I guess I'll just say that if you don't fully believe in the Abrahamic narrative and worldview I would suggest studying philosophy. Church is good for community, but an inquiring mind will find traditional Christianity to be wanting. At least that's how it was for me.
Christian philosophy beyond the supernatural aspects will undoubtedly improve your life if you heed it's advice, but it will never provide you with a how and why beyond "God made it so." With regards to some of the great questions. There are also massive discrepancies with regards to a historical Jesus.
Personally, I have found Buddhist philosophy to be much more robust. It's a belief system that invites inquiry and skepticism. Even the supernatural aspects of their belief line up better with reality than christianity does. There are conceptual aspects of it which align with known laws of physics; specifically with regards to karma, which actually isn't inherently supernatural, and is very close to the 2nd law of thermodynamics, almost a 1 to 1 in terms of mechanism of function. Even the concept of reincarnation aligns more with reality.
If you are a skeptical mind, and you want answers I would highly suggest that you look into Buddhism. It is an incredibly pragmatic system of belief, I don't even think of it as a religion. There are no gods in the traditional sense. Gods in their belief system are functionaries of the universe, the karma system.
Ditch the ego, free your mind and delve into it. You will find yourself quite surprised. I would suggest engaging with an AI about it. I find they are great for theological exploration.