Situation deteriorating
Broke 2 phones in 2 months
Running out of money
Punched 5 holes in walls, parents know
Getting fatter while losing weight
Had more grip strength when I was four
Nerve damage never healed and starting to drop pills and eggs more
Brain injury waiver closed me out for third year in a row because I'm useless
Still addicted to telling AI my symptoms and expecting anything to change
Claude says I will lose capacity to live alone in 2 to 5 years and at risk of stroke and heart failure from decade of cortisol and (my high blood pressure readings, heart murmurs on 2021 and occasional arrhythmia might be making sense now)
Grotesque lumps on my back getting bigger
Vision worsening
Can't stop punching myself in the back of the head
Memantine and naltrexone made it worse
Every drug doesn't do anything
Getting slower and thinking less
Probably neurodegeneration and cte
I've hit myself 2,000 to 20,000 times since 2015
9x9ft room twin mattress window doesn't open
I smell like grease cum and stress sweat
No resources for noxacusis
All I can do is eat starch and masturbate on $941 I didn't earn and can't improve situation
Pathetic half assed cope that jesus might return in my lifetime and restore broken people

I can't leave this shithole webpage ever since I saw a yonkers link on endchan six years ago