As a young man I've lusted after many girls my own age, wanting to use their bodies for pleasure..but it wasn't until I felt genuine affection from an older woman that I learned how to love, not lust. I think about her all the time, not her body but her character, her richness and warmth and her inner beauty. How everything feels different when she's around. I want her in my life so bad, I want to hold her hand and kiss her nose and tell her how I feel. But I know she doesn't feel the same way, she sees me as a child like I remind her of her son. I'll probably never be more than that to her.