I won't be posting the self-hating threads for while. I just feel like I'll be forever alone for the rest of my life. I wasn't the popular blonde Germanic guy at school who dated the popular Germanic blonde girl. I was always the weirdest of the class. And like, even if I want to engage in a relationship, I always think in a sexual way and not in a romantic way. Because I just want to stay with the person to fuck and not to love. And I also don't think some blonde chick would fuck with me because she loves me, differently from the BBC cases where women are paid for fucking and not because they love the blacks.